I think you're putting too much pressure on yourself. sounds like you need a break.

no one says you have to finish VloMo - you've done heaps in inspiring others and asking people to participate. I wouldn't get it done if I was at home - it's just I'm on a business trip in another country so I have all night to do things as there's not a lot else to do here. it's either this or watching star world and more friends & seinfeld reruns :) + I've found that once I get home and life sets in I start to forget about the little quirks in other places so it's a good opportunity to capture them so I can check later. & I don't have my isadora computer to play in that (still love using it to play with/practice effects & feedback loops)

but yeah I understand the blog format things you mentioned. I prefer the drupal/CMS method as you can keep the front page (stories) separate from blogs and they each have feeds so u can do the featured posts. or even keep some posts 'sticky' at top of your blog if u want to feature them but still keep the blogginess (wrt date) for the others. & u can display posts in multiple areas of the site so there's more chances for people to come across them.

I love both your types of videos - the planned ones + the quick ones (but yeah even they do take up time to convert/make). you have the creative streak and artists eye. I wish you could find a way to get paid for doing them - I still think nokia should be paying u as you're a great ambassador for them (without even trying to be). if nokia had a blog you should be doing it (though I prob wouldn't watch a corporate/product blog so maybe not)

just catching up on your vids. u need to get back to this feeling : vimeo.com/2295068

more sleep too probably wouldn't hurt

Well, you really said it all when you said that you were doing this to please yourself. That's what this really is. As someone who has posted far more than my share of crap, I can say that I don't do it for the audience (because I know of only a couple of people who ever watch my videos), I certainly don't do it for the money. I do it because I enjoy it, even if I know it's crap. I love your stuff, but it's always good to keep in mind that at it's core, this is what we do because we want to and because we're enjoying ourselves. And when it becomes a chore and we're "hating it" (as I believe you mentioned. Several times), then it's no longer fun, is it?

this was my favorite video from the month.

DUDE!! I have had feelings like this off and on all year. Not so much the video blogging format but the feeling of not putting out quality stuff or drowning out the really good stuff with quick little "shit" videos. I find myself with less and less time these days for not only making videos but watching them as well. I mean look at me, I'm watching this 30 days after you posted it.

I think a break is what you need but really you shouldn't worry yourself about what kinds. Your videos, all of your videos, including this one, show the passion you have in all things you do. You such a lifeline for the video blogging community. Just keep doing what you're doing.

u should watch more old soviet films. it will give you nice perspective.