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Bonnie's Poem

A beautiful child conceived by our love
Like children, we planned for your birth
The gift of a daughter bestowed from above
Though you were not long for this earth

It's natural to ask why, to believe and deny
The reasons for inflicting such pain
"It's just life" and "We live and we die"
Conveniently deflects all the blame

"It's not fair!" and "What did I do?"
Keeps spinning around in my head
I hear her gasp and I hear her coo
Why not take me instead?

But life's the big mystery and we're not to know
The reasons why Bonnie is gone
We're blessed by her visit and brighter we glow
Tomorrow a more meaningful dawn

Family and friends, hold those you hold dear
For short may be life's stormy sea
Hold those that are far and those that are near
That.... brings back my Bonnie to me

-Randy Noland

Our daughter Bonnie Marie passed away in my arms at home on December 11th, 2011. She was not alone. She was almost three months old and born with a rare condition called Pontocerebellar Hypoplasia. She spent about 8 weeks of her life in the hospital. No parent should have to endure the loss of a child but all considering, it was special to be able to hold and love her as she slept away.

Bonnie leaves behind a father, mother and sister along with grandparents, great grandparents, aunt, uncles and cousins who love and miss her dearly.

Thank you all for your condolences and prayers

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  • Philip Bloom pro 2 months ago
    So very hard to watch Randy and I never met her and I cannot imagine the heartache. She was so beautiful and this is lovely memory of her my friend.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thanks Philip. She sure was. I appreciate you and your words, means a lot.
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  • Kessler Crane pro 2 months ago
    Randy, again I am so sorry you, your wife and Bonnie had to go through this. She is so beautiful. You and your wilfe will be in our prayers. Call on me for anything.

    -Eric-
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Eric. I really appreciate it!
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  • Great tribute. You're dealing with more than almost all of us could ever barely imagine.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you. I always wondered how folks cope and now that I have experienced this, all I can say is that you just rise up and do what you have to do, the best you can. Again, thank you.
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  • Shelly 2 months ago
    This is so sad. When was she born? My son was born on 9/15 of this year, and I couldn't imagine loosing him. Words cannot express how deeply sorry I am for your loss.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Shell. Bonnie was born on the same day as your son. Hold him tight and give him everything he needs. Im sure you will.
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  • Trixie Barretto plus 2 months ago
    i am so sorry
    sending hugs across the oceans
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Trixie
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  • 3dmicpro.com plus 2 months ago
    Our hearts are broken, our entire team is devastated with this news. Being a father of two daughters I can fathom what you are going through. We are touched in this life by many kind souls and angles like Bonnie. Life works in very mysterious way and there is no one who can ever get the answer “why me”. Life and death are integral part or lifecycle but it hurts like hell to part with nearest and dearest one. In Hinduism and Buddhism, the spiritual teaching is to consider death is like changing old garments for the soul, as the soul is eternal, nothing can destroy it. Such thought somehow provides me peace as I feel my beloved departed ones are still there somewhere and we still love each other. We can be only thankful for their short visit and cherish all the love and joyful moments. Our entire team is praying for you and your family. May god give you and your family the strength to overcome is great grief and loss.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you for your words of encouragement. There is spirituality and peace in you write and I appreciate them.
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  • glenn letham 2 months ago
    A beautiful tribute and poem Randy... I know it likely gives you great comfort spending the hours putting this together
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thanks Glenn. I appreciate you taking the time to watch. It was bitter sweet but it seems to help.
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  • Den Lennie pro 2 months ago
    Hey Randy,

    What a beautiful and heart warming tribute. Thank you for sharing this deeply personal experience. God Bless you, Bobbee and Betsy. Den & Sam
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Den, you and Sam both. I really appreciate your kind words.
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  • Michael Toffan 2 months ago
    Randy, a very beautiful video and words in memory of your beautiful daughter. We are truely sorry for your loss. Our hearts are heavy and our thoughts go out to you and your family. Mike and Sangmi
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Mike and Sangmi. My family and I appreciate it.
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  • David Hodge plus 2 months ago
    Your love and talent show passion for all you do and those you know, Randy. I lost my first born and the loss of a child never really leaves you. However, I couldn't think of a more loving pair of people to have given love to a child than you and your wife. Bonnie, I have every confidence, knew she was loved without a shadow of a doubt as evidenced by your pictures and posts of the past months. Now, she brings joy to all in heaven that come in contact with her of that I also have no doubt.
    My heart just hurts to reach out and comfort you but feels feeble in the attempts to soothe hearts that are missing a peace of them that encapsulated all of life's possibilities.
    All I can say is that I am at your disposal for anything in my power and wish you God's strength. Contact me any time for any reason. Same goes for your wife as well.
    I would so much like to be at the service to celebrate her life here. God bless to the classiest couple I know and your family as well.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    David, thank you so much or your kind words. We are blessed to have known her.
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  • No parent should ever have to live through this. So undeserved. Being a parent of two myself, my thoughts are with you and your family, Randy.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Richard. No rhyme or reason to life sometimes.
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  • Sebastian Wiegärtner pro 2 months ago
    Randy, I'm so sorry! This is so sad! :-(

    My thoughts are with you and your family! I'm a daddy too and this makes me cry...

    Sebastian
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Sebastian. Hold your family tighter still...
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  • Paul Joy plus 2 months ago
    So sorry for your loss. As a soppy father myself I was in tears after reading the poem, I almost didn't have the strength to press play but then realised how that must fade in comparison to the strength it took for you to make it.

    Thanks for sharing some of your precious memories, our heavy hearts are with you and your family.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Many thanks Paul. Making the video was bitter sweet but keeps Bonnie near.
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  • Mario Muth plus 2 months ago
    Thanks for sharing this. I have two small children and this reminds me of what is important in life. As a stanger it is hard to find the right words but she will always be around and her memories will never disapear through the moving pictures. This must have been very hard to put togther for your. Greatest respect and thanks for giving me a moment of perspective.
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  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Mario. I really appreciate your reply. Yes this kind of event puts things in perspective.
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  • Nicholas Coyne plus 2 months ago
    I am so sad for your loss. Your video and poem had tears rolling down my cheeks. It brings my small troubles into perspective. You and your family are in our thoughts.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thanks so much Nick. It's great to hear from you.
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  • RockySmokey 2 months ago
    Sorry about your loss.

    A beautiful tribute.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you
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  • Chris Weatherly plus 2 months ago
    I've watched two close families lose their children in the last year. I still can't comprehend their pain. I'm so sorry for your lose and will pray for you and your family.

    The video is a wonderful tribute to your beautiful daughter. Thanks for sharing her story.
  • Randy Noland pro 2 months ago
    Thank you Chris. I really appreciate your words. I hope your friends are coping and doing well with their loss.

    Take care!!
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  • Philip Johnston pro 1 month ago
    Wonderful tribute to your little girl, as a father of two boys my heart goes out to you and your family.
  • Randy Noland pro 1 month ago
    Thank you Philip. I appreciate it. Thinks are moving in the normal direction now. Family is closer because of Bonnie.
    Cheers and best of luck in your video endeavors. I read your site often. Bought your AF100 stuff. Cheers!
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  • Mahmod 3 weeks ago
    i just saw this movie, oh my god it touches me so deeply. sorry for your lost, say it late better than not saying it.
  • Randy Noland pro 3 weeks ago
    No worries Mahmod. I really appreciate the kind words. It was some kind of experience loving and knowing her but we are a closer family for it.
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