DEPRESSIVA

W on the attic, in white transparent little négligé

S on the attic, wearing her pyamas

S Are you cold?

W Have a look. full of goosebumps. here. here. you see. all over the place.

S Darling, why didn't you tell me! * 1)

W Forget about it. I tend to get goosebumbs for minor reasons.

S You have that big city kid natural forthrightness and yet none of that smug smoothness of a certain type of the privileged. You are bright-eyed, friendly and polite, and all of it clearly comes naturally to you. You can't not like you. * 2)

W Yes.. I do like myself a lot. Look.. full of goosebumbs. Maybe i did not dress right for the occasion? I mean.. it is not a secret that i have never done this before..

S Oh, Willehad, let me transfer some psychic heat to you. Allow me to share my electromagnetic fields, please.

S heats up and starts to glow like an electric heater (special-FX: soft OFF-SCREEN voice)

I stabilize myself with the seven point posture and regulate my breathing.

I visualize a spot four fingers below the navel, where the three channels converge.

In this spot is positioned the hair-breath in thickness and appears red.

It trembles and vibrates like the little flame that trembles in the stove.

I breathe in using the complete slick approach.

The temperature rises by an exothermic reaction,

in which the chi enters the left and right channels warmly and explosively

When this breath of wind reaches the meeting point of the three channels,

it fans the fire and increases the energy of particles causing them to vibrate more rapidly.

The hair-breath delightfully thickens, and becomes even redder.

This is the practice of drops and inner fire generating true heat at its finest.

This can eventually cause me to melt then evaporate. * 3) * 4)

W It has to be said you are quite impressive when you do these sci-fi things. Psychic heat.. I do hate to admit it, but it even works. I have the feeling my nightgown just got a bit more tight.

S How? Where? (looks direction W.s dick)

(S doesnt return to normal. Partly evaporated. she stays half transparent. You cant hear what she says anymore - you see only the mouth-movement + visible letters/words) Mmmmm, uuuhhh. I think i overdid it. I feel awkward. I always do this.  I like it, but its too much. Its just too much and I just dont learn.

W (OFF-SCREEN voice) The most prevalent type of haunting, by far, is referred to as Classic or Intelligent Haunting.

In an Intelligent Haunting the spirit, or ghost, demonstrates an intelligence and an awareness of its surroundings. These ghosts have been known to communicate with humans and to interact with their environment. In this type of haunting it is common for objects to be moved. There have been reports of ghosts making noises, such as rapping or banging on walls, slamming doors, or making footsteps. Ghosts have been known to move things around, or even to hide objects. They may even turn light switches on and off. This type of ghost will often manifest the personality of someone who has died. Smells and odors that were commonly present with the person when they were still living, such as tobacco, perfume, or flowers, often occur in these hauntings. My ass.

S (You cant hear what she says - you see only the moving mouth + letters/words) I'm not a ghost. I'm just a bit burned out!

* 1) "Belly Laughs Annual" Harold Meyers

* 2) David Patrick Columbia's New York Social Diary: Thank God it's Friday

about Richard Nixon's grandson Chris Cox

* 3) Wikipedia: Heat-transmission

* 4) Psychic Heat, Drops and Inner Fire from "Highest Yoga Tantra and Mahamudra" Sheng-yen Lu

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W in the little room, on the sofa, in white transparent little nightgown + négligé

A in the studio, in front of the glass in one of her cute girl-things (dress/skirt)

S appears as a ghost, wearing her pyamas

A (looking from outside through the window into the little room) this sort of things is bad technique

W i have them and i use them thats not what they are there for, perhaps. but surely its one of the things they are good for (standing around in the little room, legs apart, view from the side: you cant see what exactly he is doing there - puts something in his ...)

A i am aware that these matters are, from their very nature, very controversial *1)

W i could stop if i wanted to

A i would like you to feel that i understand as perhaps few can *2)

W is that true?

A i think thats true

W oh, really?

A yes, well, that sort of thing - i guess theres something to that

W (while hes concentrated on pushing and pulling something in and out of his ... the whole time) in a visual way or in a conceptual way? *3)

A (turns away) its an enjoyable mix. brillantly structured, friendly, inspiring and much, much, much more

W (now lying on his back, upside down, legs spread, rubbing ...) dirty white girl *4)

S (Sabina's ghost stands between his legs and on one leg, on the backside of his chair, doing a yoga-balance-exercise)

A (looking in again) a sight for sore eyes *5) your ass is showing, sonny boy! *1)

W i am seized and hold by fraud *6)

A use your magical powers

W i already am in a logic defying inversion of normal reality

A (sits down on the floor, with her back to the window) you do it for the buzz *1)

W i know this isnt the best thing for me to do and i completely accept that

A you sound rotten, i should dump you

W (while he's still concentrating on - only half visible - pushing and pulling something in and out of his ... the whole time) in a visual way or in a conceptual way? *3)

A (turns away) everyone judges people by their choices, and i do it, too. if i see a gal or a guy doing certain things its like "oh fuck, you're done.

why did you pick THAT? come on!" *7)

W i cannot complain. i cannot complain at all. it has just been a crazy, crazy ride. *8) (while cleaning up his ... dildo(?) - you cant really identify the thing hes cleaning with a towel)

A you make me puke

W thats not a very nice thing to say!

A wasnt what?

W a very nice thing to say *9)

A virtues all wrapped in a package and ready for use (praying - eyes looking up) please set me free from the compulsion to criticize, judge, condemn and retaliate *10)

* 1) stephen king: "on writing"

* 2) alcoholics anonymous "big book"

* 3) robert smithson

* 4) stephen hunter

* 5) ruth rendell

* 6) dictionary

* 7) taylor kitsch

* 8) dev patel

* 9) "whos afraid of virginia woolf" edward albee

*10) "courage to change" alanon