This is were it starts. The past month has been nothing but a blur. I have talk to the person who i tell everything to (good, bad, happy, sad, everything) once in the past 4 weeks, made 6 new friends, found a level of self confidence that caught me off guard, wrote music that I love, smoked too many cigarettes, met someone who I needed and wanted to meet (sometimes one person will change your whole outlook and feeling about everything, thank you), thought about things too much, thought about them a lot, felt like I can't speak how I feel, found self gradification, and now I'm the most confused I have ever been in my whole life.
I'm think I have became aware of what I really want and have no idea how to act upon it. Is this my epiphany? Am I just getting older? I feel like the same person. I dont think I have changed at all. Just as soon as I think I have it, my mind relapses and takes every notion I have carefully plucked from my repertoire of thoughts and scatters it to the ends of my brain. So I start over. But what am I looking for? I don't even know what "it" is. Hopefully "it" will come. "It will come" she says.

P.S Here is a little clip of Alex winning beer pong. Drink up mike and matt. Ha. Glorious.