I'm sorry you feel this way. Maybe the best thing right now is to figure out what you want in a relationship before you jump into a whole bunch of bad dates with people. Like you said, you can't just snap into it.

I'm sure a lot of your friends have told you that things happen for a reason, this true. You just have to let fate and faith take it's course.

For instance I used to think, who would want to date a guy who is unemployed, lives with his Dad, & has been battling and extremely rare cancer for 1.5yrs?

Well I found an amazing girl friend! Things just get better everyday!