Submitted to Adam Douglas Kamil Media Awards 2014
Theme: "So, What's Your Story?"
We desire to be eternal because of our consciousness of time and mortality. Nature, on the other hand, is not preoccupied with death, but with life. Its job is to continue the cycle of life unknowing of its fate. Contrarily, the human mind has become so complex and hyperaware of reality that it has the need to create technology to capture moments so that we can hold on to what is inevitably ephemeral. It may help, but is it the answer? It does not give us back what the universe has taken away from us. We continue to seek out these truths, finding ways to make something last forever. We learn the hard way the cruelty of the cycle at one point or another in our lifetime. Mortality introduced himself to me at the age of six, when my mom was instantly killed in a car accident. I hoped never to meet him again. The good that did come out of that life changing experience was the bond I created with my dad. He was my best friend, the funniest man I knew, the life of the party – he taught me to live day by day, to cherish each moment. These were valuable lessons, especially to prepare me for what would come next. Fifteen years from my first sudden encounter with Mortality, he came back in a different form – in a painstaking, lingering form. My dad was hospitalized for five months in Italy while I was studying abroad there. I visited him every day, witnessing his body grow weaker and weaker. It was by far the most challenging and enduring experience of life. Mortality whisked him away without so much as a care that I would be a twenty-one year old orphan. But, with death there is always rebirth, and this, nature knows so well. I found love during my study abroad in Italy and would not have been able to get through the hard times without my now husband. Love is something that gives us hope for a forever. It fulfills the void that is the unanswered questions about life. Just as photographs and videos try to hold on to moments that come and go, love, for even an instant longer than that, allows us to transcend our hyperawareness and just feel – feel all the glory that comes with life. Through my experiences of pain, loss and love, I have come to realize that the things that matter most are not the superficialities of the world that one must buy, but the pure, simple moments that can only be felt. It’s not always easy to remember or think about because of the busyness of day to day life and all the stress that comes with it, but I think it’s important because one day we will realize that the little moments were the big moments all along and you never know when it might be someone’s last. This is my story and this is what I try to convey through my film.

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