I'm a bit of everything, curious, lazy, bored, moved or at sleep at most of my living time, just like everyone else.

But when I'm awake, I'm doing my best to enjoy in every day or to create some music. I cook when i have to, but I'm not fan of it, and so for cleaning or washing. Attending collage, but it's just hobby, like Groucho Marx says "My hobby is breathing".

Sometimes i like to lay in bed all day and watch TV-shows, and that might looks like wasting my times, but "That's the thing about being grown up my little friend, when you are grown you don't get a breaks". I'm always on move, even if that's not what is look like.

I'm not fan of hippies, but Lennon said it right :

"...You may say that I'm a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one..."

So, if you find world as violent, greedy, pointless place. And human kind as bunch of animals that will kill each other for stupid things, and our Earth as spinning atom that we might never find out what is real purpose other than exploiting it and using as some kind of gravitational cage, than relax, you are not the only one.

There is no grand finale, big bang, heaven or supreme court or magic (other than physics we don't understand). Just big nothing, same feeling like it was before you got your little life. If you can you should sing, dance, drink, eat a lot of fruits and close newspapers and social network sites and never, never in your life "read beauty magazines,cos they will only make you feel ugly…".

Read a lot of books, but never show all you know. If you feel lonely and you have to find friends go find them, but be ready for shallowness and betrayal. So and for girlfriend or spouse. Relationships are fragile "Vows are spoken To be broken".

And in the end you lose only what you have inside of you. Be ready for that risk, many people don't need to worry about that. And till then do whatever works in life to feel better and learn to enjoy in that.

GS
16.09.2011