2010-12-18 2nd LIVE Journal, Mayan day 11 Death or Transformer
♥ TRANSCRIPT: http://www.scribd.com/doc/45624158
Still feeling pretty lousy, overall, but I come to you, anyway. I like producing two videos each day. I try to do that. Sometimes I just turn on the web cam just to see if anything worthwhile comes out. It’s pretty funny, but it usually does. Over the year or so I’ve been doing this, maybe 1 or 2 videos didn’t work. It was usually for sound quality, too.
So, this time I come to you as the Purple Monster. I think he’s kinda cute, really - not so monsterish. I wanted to talk a bit about the after-life judgment. Seemed maybe an appropriate choice of visage for judging. Who knows.
It appears others may be as interested as I am in the NDE subject. By the number of comments and votes on those videos, anyway, it appears possible. I seem to be getting back into that subject. I used to call it my hobby, I was so deeply into it for about a dozen years. Now, I find myself drawn back into it. Guess it has some relevance or import for my now, based on how fascinating it is to me right now.
This heavy heart thing - it would be nice to find my way on through and out of it. It’s important, I’ve found, not to run from this, but just to be still with it. I’m being shown all kinds of things as I go through this stuff. These are things we don’t usually get to see, being so busy trying to leave the pain behind. Thus, there can be some real illuminations in the midst of this stuff that we just haven’t had before.
Then, too, another good thing to do is to look closely - to observe and ask, “What part of me is hurting here? Is that really my real self, or could it be just mind? Could it be simple programming, coming up, there?” These are great questions to consider in the midst of one’s pain... Distributed by Tubemogul.