The work „PUSH AND PULL“ draws from the limitations that I encountered while taking daily care of my baby and trying to keep my artistic practice alive. The idea behind it is to question the power relations between a parent and an infant by using the figure of the lion tamer. Who is the dominant figure? Who directs whom? Who relinquishes? Who wins?
On the one hand I found myself as a parent constantly trying to tame the natural impulses of my baby, giving it commands, putting it behind bars to keep it safe, soothing its wild tempers. On the other hand I also felt captive myself, surrendering to its orders, yielding to its needs on the spot. This constant shift in the relationship has been partly exhausting but nevertheless always accompanied by lots of joy and fun. Therefore I intuitively chose the circus aesthetic to convey this discrepancy.
Using a GoPro camera to document these encounters was the only way to film during my daily routine, while staying flexible to the switch of locations and unexpected situations. The fish-eye lens of the camera also contributes to the circus aesthetic.
The video fits to my practice, since I always integrate my work with my current state in life blurring the boundaries of career and private life. Furthermore, I always use my bodily presence to pinpoint questions of female representation and objectivation in popular culture, entertainment and the media.