“Diary of an Infatuation Junkie” is the title for my recent body of work. The work concerns the human psyche obsessed in a lifetime pursuit of love, freedom and happiness. We often look outside ourselves to fill this longing, when what we really need is to look within. Through online shopping and dating, we are forever running on a hamster wheel in search of ‘true love’ or the perfect (fill in the blank), object. We con ourselves into believing we can find happiness through a computer when in fact it winds up controlling us, an obsession and thus a drug we use to avoid facing ourselves and our life. This longing propels us from one infatuation to the next, hoping this person or thing will make us whole. Our fixations remove us from our fears: money issues, criticism of ones self, ones life, ones family and friends, sadness frustration or anger with regrets and the past. We’re running after our own tail, which is appropriate, as even in the pursuit of ‘the one’, if we are not at peace with ourselves, do not need ‘an other’ to be whole, we will never find what we’re looking for. Nevertheless, what often becomes a frustrating and tiring experience can also provide some inspired moments. In the pursuit of fulfillment there exists simultaneously a great pathos as well as humor between human beings; we are all in this together.
This particular human dilemma of a lifelong search for perfect companionship in tandem with social and political issues of the day, has inspired me to create this body of artwork. Interestingly enough, while working, the gap in my soul is filled, but dissipates a day or two after I stop. Either I continue working or I find myself longing for my ‘person’ yet again. Once I find ‘my person’ if I stop creating my work, ‘my person’ stops filling the gap; A never-ending cycle.
These narrative pieces take their form through printed photographic composites and mixed-media. Using images appropriated from mass culture in tandum with objets trouvés the work is printed as a flat completed piece, cut up to create mixed-media wall reliefs on wooden frames or built directly on the wall as in my installation at the Venice Biennale.