Part video essay, performance documentation, and also experimental film, "Throwing My Weight Around" documents a single happening which occurs within the larger context of a year-long durational performance. This embedded performance depicts a futile gesture of force. Attempts to throw my weight in flour against the wind is paired with a straightforward, transgressive prose on the complex nature of motherhood. This reflection is through the lens of a feminist, mother artist. Flour is an elemental ingredient in the domestic kitchen. It provides the foundation for baking and is derived from nature. It has secular significance as well- found in the Bible to symbolize the body of Christ. Foundations that are societal, familial and pedagogical are structures which are called into question. I examine the archetype of the neglectful and abusive mother. Flour as a powder on the wind is seemingly inconsequential, but when added up has tremendous weight. This is an “embedded performance”, a term I coined to describe the performances I documented while also engaged in a larger, year-long durational performance called “Artist Working”. In this video, I am filmed wearing my “Artist Working” jumpsuit. A uniform I wore for an entire year without washing it. I allowed the residue of my lived experience to accumulate in a daily, reflective practice. “Throwing My Weight Around” is a deeper stratum of my experiential and psychological investigation into the theme of shame and vulnerability.