This project came about almost two years this coming winter. Ever since I was a baby, literally right out of the womb I was introduced to an object, and that was a film camera. My dad filmed me almost everyday until he passed away in 1990 of a fatal valve disfunction connected to his heart. Unfortunately this lead me to become very anxious and upset that I didn't have this man in my life, not only a male figure to set examples, but a well respected man among his peers and family. I felt like everyone got a chance to get to know him except for me. The two years I did have with him that are no longer reachable in time... are there forever in a place where I can't see it, but I feel it. I have embedded in me a gift that he gave me. That even though he isn't here in the present he is here within photos, his poetry, stories that live on that people remember about him, the tree that was planted by his friends in St. Marks Church and his soul that I believe helps me a long in this life. As I became older It became harder for me to watch my home videos. I wanted to erase everything and pretend like nothing ever happened. When I got to college and on to my senior year I really had no idea what I was going to do. I thought, great, I'm going to fail... then my dad popped into my mind, and I remembered all my home video tapes. I started watching them and seeing them from a different perspective instead of seeing them as a negative and unfair belonging he had left behind. I studied them and I started to use the tapes as forms of time, and stopped them at times when it was intriguing to me for some reason. I healed tremendously from this... it was Art in a form of therapy that I didn't even know until I finished the project! I give a big thank you to David Thomashower, a good friend who helped me and taught me all about editing in a new way I had never thought of. We worked together to form a short film, and without his help it wouldn't be what it is. I hope you enjoy it, and gain some sense of healing if you have lost someone close to you in your life. I hope it teaches you something. - Elizabeth

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