Four years ago, when I turned the last page of the book Testo Junkie: Sex, Drugs, and Biopolitics by Paul B. Preciado, I decided to quit the birth control pills that I was using for almost ten years and the antidepressants for one and a half years. Despite not quitting cold turkey, drug elimination transformed my body intensely. I had nights crying, figuring out the affect of touch and how my senses had been changing. Simultaneously, I was turned on by the idea of gender hacking, by using small amounts of testosterone, yet I realized that neither my past nor my emotional situation would allow that.
The lecture performance Döner-Blackout or Press Conference: Testo Soap begins with advertisements and continues with a press conference—a fictive situation in the future, like a cabaret of conservative try-outs. The dystopic moment continues with short snippets on pharmocapitalism and Preciado’s wor(l)d-s/ing that made me contemplate the vigorous gender-hackers and the governmental politics around population control such as the contraceptive trials of the US Government on Puerto Rican women in the 1950s or China's compulsory sterilization. I have been wondering: was there a similar method used on Ks?
Two different versions performed at 2nd “” symposium Berlin, curated by Creamcake and at the exhibition Hactivate Yourself at 1a Space Hong Kong curated by Tuçe Erel.