Writing always came from a desire to understand the things that haunted me, a way to come to terms with issues that made me wonder. In 'dear diary', I read various exerpts from the diary I kept when I was 17 when I was starving myself. Through my own experience of 'self-destruction', I now believe that it stemmed from a bizzare displacement of power. At a time where everything seemed beyond my control, starvation seemed to be the answer. Through controlling my food intake I felt empowered, when, in reality I was more trapped than ever before.
The video plays in a continuous circle, expressing the cyclical nature of a persons life when they are trapped within a self destructive pattern.