Push is one of the eleven films that make up the body of work Conscious.
It aims to represent the struggle that this particular patient has had in forcing her brain to remember events, in an attempt to piece together a comprehensive analysis of her state, before, during and after her awareness. For her, this was the only way she could gain any meaningful information. By writing and drawing memories and thoughts as they came, she could retain and revisit a further sequence of events. At one point, her memories are blocked internally, and she describes the sensation.
This film raises questions regarding the processes of the brain when dealing with trauma and it also asks questions about coping mechanisms.
The intention of this film is to ask those who have experienced an anaesthetic awareness and those who have experienced trauma to consider, recall and record how they have dealt with trauma, and how their brains have reacted. Has trauma affected your brain or has your brain been damaged?
Comments and testimony can be recorded at anaestheticawareness.info
Conscious is the name of the project hosted at anaestheticawareness.info.
In it I have produced a series of films that retell the experience of one person’s anaesthetic awareness. The aim of the project is that these films will act as the catalyst for discourse amongst those who have experienced anaesthetic awareness, providing a conduit for valuable connections, potentially leading to a support community for those who are experiencing difficulties directly or indirectly connected to their experience.
Running alongside the online community project is the physical presence of this work. In this strand Conscious becomes an installation where trainee medical students can directly interact with the work by being shown films in designed spaces. These depict the environments connected to the anaesthetic awareness case represented in the films, the aim of this is to provide a visual, aural and experiential educational experience for the students, with the intention of promoting a better understanding of the issues amongst healthcare practitioners and, hopefully, reducing its future incidence. Invited participants are then asked to record their experience of the material directly at anaestheticawareness.info, thereby creating a connection between the two audiences, and potentially opening up new lines of discourse that would otherwise never exist.