This is part of a series of video-clips. For the full story go to my personal website: myscirecovery.com.
The first thing that strikes me about this clip is how paralysed and and skinny my legs looks and how bony the knee is with no muscle around it.
There is a lot less control in the leg than a year later. It just seems that there isn't the drive or the force in it. Don't get me wrong, I can hear the exertion in my breathing (when I'm not joking), but there just weren't the connections for me to get more out of the leg. However, part of this is also to capture any feeling or sensation. When something is moving, if I can get inside and feel what it is that should be making it happen, it's all part of making the connections at a conscious level. More connections equal more control.
For me, this is a beautiful clip, and serves to remind me how much has changed and how far I have already come. There is just no short-cutting all these hours.
At the beginning you can hear Hratch telling me to just push. Since I didn't have control or feeling at that point, he just has to get it all working, to get tension building up, and any sort of reaction. Separating off individual muscles is a long way off yet.