After our final goodbye I’ve bought a notebook which became my only listener at that time. Nevertheless I still wanted to believe that our lives can be written simultaneously as one: I decided to keep the virtual, online track of that diary so you could both watch me and by filling it with content be watched wherever your way would lead you.
I've kept describing my days shaped mostly by your absence. I've still kept the access open although you've never replied, hurting me by your passive ignorance and never properly explained silence. I was playing around with words keeping in mind who you were, having no clue who you actually had become. I was playing around with myself on the playground of my illusory low self-esteem, guiltiness and humiliation.
Watchmeandletbewatched became a ritualistic and actual closure of that attempt of merging separated. After that I've started to write my life back again myself.
The film was made during Kino Euphoria Midnight Sun in Rovaniemi in June 2013.