I spent eight years in the Military. Like so many service men and women, my experience on the front lines left a powerful mental residue. My time in war might be over but the combat goes over and over in my mind. I have radically changed in recent years, maintaining a connection to the seductive embrace of formalism, PTSD deals with themes of decision-making, preservation of focus and the consequences of volunteering one's self to a false belief. In the video component of PTSD the flickering and dissolving footage from wartime Iraq is juxtaposed against time spent in Varanasi, India. With constantly changing color and form, flowing water is contained by unyielding yet transparent layers, employing documentary grammar while ensuring a sense of uncertainty is captured: the ultimate message is the relationship between war and reconciliation, of interrogating our wisdom in the choices we make that simultaneously become our collective and individual futures.
