Swimming Lesson deals with a personal past trauma that is difficult for to talk about. The only way to speak about it is through a self-imposed baptismal action. Through the gesture I try to talk about the trauma under water but the viewer/listener cannot understand me. It is also hard to speak under water just as it is hard to speak about personal trauma.
The piece consists of a video in which the viewer becomes part of the baptism from the framing and closeness. One video is an underwater shot in which the camera is under the water with me as I try to speak. The images consist of bubbles escaping from my mouth and the water my hair moving and floating in the water as in and out of the water. I have to come up for air and it is impossible to completely finish the story. Which is why another video exists that shows me coming up for air and calming and preparing myself before I go under again, trying to complete the story.
The sound of the video is muffled and distorted words that are unclear to the audience. Even though I tell the story and try to release it, the world can never hear it.