Recalling is a collage of footage that recalls my memory of Kurt Cobain's death. Three days after my third birthday Kurt had killed himself, on April 8th he was discovered by an electrician and the media went wild. I watched CNN announce his death as this channel was always on because my Dad constantly watched the news and stock market. I felt a simple sadness for him and his family as I was only three, yet I understood what suicide was because my Mom and I used to watch Marilyn Monroe movies together. She had to explain to me how Marilyn had died because I was curious. Little did I know that I would continue to be infatuated with learning about Kurt and trying to understand why this all happened. I grew more and more connected and found the solace so many people had found in his music. I grew to understand him because I found that I could relate to him. But I believe many good things have come from his legacy, even though he is no longer here, his memory is, his music is, and this is what inspires people and myself. In this film is also footage from my childhood around this time, my Cousin Sandi's 1993 Wedding, Christmas 1994, and my 5th Birthday, which all symbolizes childhood innocence and the time that I became affected. The contemporary footage of myself was filmed in 2011 during my trip to Seattle to visit my Cousin Elizabeth. We had traveled to Aberdeen (that footage is not used here) and we went to the EMP Exhibit, Nirvana: Taking Punk to the Masses of which is where this particular footage was filmed, it was my recalling of Kurt's death. I have taken the sound out for my own privacy, if anyone really wants to hear what I am saying, you can contact the Curating Department at the EMP. After this trip I came home and finally decided to seek help for Depression, Anxiety, and Paranoia. The hardest part is admitting it to yourself and the journey is not easy, but for me it was successful because I kept it completely and 100% private until I was done. This film was actually originally constructed in 2011, but was scrapped and the original meaning was changed to a different subject which had reflected my current state of mind at that time and memory of my own personal detachment from society which is, Contaminated Laundry. You can watch that film on this Vimeo Channel and it is also why you will see some of the same footage here is this video. The audio in this film is a childlike ding version of Nirvana's, Sappy that I found on some cheapo download site, I think it was for old cell phones in the early 2000's. It's lullaby-like sound perfectly complimented childhood, so it was a no brainer that I had to use it.