Someone To Talk To All The Time | 2013 | Projected Video Essay | 14:17 minutes

Someone To Talk To All The Time is one part of the essay series Pionero Americano. This series is a collection of memoir essays I have written that recount my experience of being raised in the U.S., specifically in Utah as a Mexican American in the Mormon (Latter Day Saint) church. Each essay unpacks ideas revealed through numerous events and theories connected to religion, society, philosophy and personal confrontations.

Someone To Talk To All The Time is the first chapter in the series and describes how falling in love with a Caucasian American conflicted with my predefined ideas of race. This act allowed for both my husband and I to realize we no longer believed in our organized religion, and more than anything we doubted its morals. The title Someone to Talk T All The Time refers to our experience of finding a partner replacing the need to pray by having another person present to speak to all the time. In creating this film I hoped to put to rest any ideas of guilt I felt in leaving the religion of my family, and hoping that by saying what I needed, they and myself would understand the intent of my actions.

The film itself is created using older footage of my family from my early twenties, as well as new film that was shot and edited in a purposefully naïve way to capture the sense of imperfection and honesty.

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