The summer before my senior year of high school, I was training hard for a college basketball scholarship. After a unfortunate injury where I tore my ACL, and a time in my life where home life was hard, I didn't feel that life was going that well at the moment.
Around that time, a family friend shared a verse from the Bible that really got me back on track. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." I realized that what I was going through was just a bump in the road.
There is never any reason to give up hope; even when no one else is around to support you, the tool of scripture that God gave us is always there to give you light to your path and to get through the tough times we go through.
For almost 12 years I was in a marriage that was physically, verbally and emotionally abusive. There were times when my ex-husband would leave for weeks with our family car. Living out in the country, my children and I would have no way to drive into town to get groceries or run errands. He led me to believe that if anything ever happened or if I ever left, that he would take the children. I didn’t know what to do.
When selfishness and pride got the best of me, I didn't know it, but it was hurting my husband and my family and myself.
Before, my identity was in my job and what I could achieve on m own. But when I lost that job, it all came crashing down around me. Had it not been for my daughter who shared Christ with me, I would not have found that my identity should not be in myself or my job -- but in Him. I learned that Christ loved me just the way I am, flaws and all.
When I was young, I was heavyset and shy. I thought that being thin would finally make me beautiful and get the attention that I so desperately wanted.
I began making rules for eating – whether it was only being able to eat liquids, not solids, or not eating after 4pm. It was no longer about fitting it. Eating made life miserable. Searching for control in my internally reckless life, I did not feel that I could control being shy, but I felt that I could control food.
I prayed that God would help me find a way out of this. God brought others into my life that gave me clear directions and helped me change my mind about whom I was and where my identity lied.
Coming full circle, I have now found my hope and trust in God. Trusting in the Lord, I now use my story to encourage and help others.