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sEE MY PROBLEM WAS THAT I CAUGHT ON WAY TOO SOON.

fiGURED OUT PRETTY QUiCK TOO THAT I DiDN'T HAVE NOBODY I COULD REASONABLY EXPECT TO BACK MY CLAiMS TO SELF-GOVERNANCE, AND I JUST DiDN'T HAVE THE BALLS TO GO INTO THAT FiGHT WITHOUT A SiNGLE ALLY.

i WENT iNTO THE BAD FEELiNGS BOTTLiNG BUSiNESS AT THAT POiNT. I BOTTLED UP A LOT OF BAD SHiT FOR YEARS AND YEARS. CAN YOU iMAGiNE A FUCKiNG FOURTH GRADER SNORKLiNG NAKED TO THE BOTTOM OF A DUMPSTER FLOODED WiTH RAiNWATER AND PiSS, TRYiNG NOT TO GAG BECAUSE iF HE DOES HE KNOWS WHATEVER COMES RUSHiNG iN iS GONNA BE A LOT WORSE THAN THE SPAGHETTi-OS HE'S VOMITING iNTO HiS TiGHTLY CLENCHED JAWS-- A FOURTH-GRADER GRASPiNG WiLDLY AND TEARiNG OPEN EVERY BLACK PLASTiC TRASH BAGS AS FAST AS HE CAN SO HE DOESN'T HAVE TiME TO SPECULATE ON WHAT SHARP AND CONTAMiNATED WASTE MiGHT LiE WiTHiN FOR EVEN A MOMENT BEFORE THE DiRTY SYRiNGES ARE ALREADY FLOATiNG ALL AROUND HiM. AND ALL OF THiS JUST BECAUSE HE BELiEVES THAT THERE'S A POSSiBiLiTY THAT DOWN AT THE BOTTOM OF THiS DUMPSTER HE MiGHT BE ABLE TO GET HiS SCAB-COVERED HANDS ON AN ESPECiALLY EXPLiCiT EXAMPLE OF THE DiSGUSTiNG THiNGS YOU CONSTANTLY "THROW AWAY." iF iT iS THERE HE'LL SMUGGLE iT OUT TO THiS HOLE iN THE WOODS WHERE HE'S GOT A FUCKiNG MUSEUM OF THiS STUFF. FAR, FAR AWAY FROM ANY PLACE YOU'D EVER ACCiDENTALLY WiND UP, THiS FUCKiNG FOURTH GRADER HAS ALL OF THE MOST PUTRiD SHiT YOU'VE EVER PUT iNTO THAT HELPFUL CAN THAT ENABLES YOU TO PRETEND -UNMOLESTED BY THE TRUTH- THAT YOUR NASTY SHiT JUST STOPS EXiSTiNG WHEN YOU TELL iT TO.

yEP, THERE REALLY WAS ONCE A QUiET FOURTH-GRADER WHO COLLECTED YOUR SHiT, PASSiONATELY, AND HE SWORE TO KEEP iT HiDDEN SAFELY UNTiL HiS COLLECTiON REACHED THE SiZE WHEN iT MiGHT EFFECTiVELY BE USED TO BURY COMPLETELY THE THREE LARGEST CiTiES iN AMERiCA.

sO I WAS PASSiVE-AGGRESSiVE AS HELL FOR A FEW YEARS. AND iT OBViOUSLY SUCKED, WASN'T DOiNG ANYBODY ANY GOOD, BUT MOST OF THE ADULTS TRiED TO ACT LiKE iT WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN BEiNG JUST PLAiN AGGRESSiVE. I THiNK THE FiRST REAL TiME I LOST MY PATiENCE WiTH THE PASSiVE WAY WAS AFTER THEY MADE US READ LORD OF THE FLiES. OH MY GOD, HAVE YOU READ THiS BULLSHiT? DiD iT NOT MAKE YOU WANT TO HOLD A FIFTY YEAR-OLD MAN TO THE GROUND AND TRY AND FORCE A SHiTTY FiNGER iNTO HiS ESOPHAGUS?

a LOT OF KiDS WOULD FALL FOR iT WHEN THOSE OLD BASTARDS WOULD ACT ALL TOUGH. iN MY OPiNiON, iT DOESN'T SAY MUCH FOR THE SCHOOL SYSTEM WHEN YOU THiNK ABOUT HOW FUCKiNG iGNORANT A PERSON HAS TO BE NOT TO REALiZE THAT PEOPLE WHO TEACH FOR A LiViNG HAVE A LOT MORE TO BE ANXiOUS ABOUT THEN THE REST OF US.

iN THE PRiNCiPAL'S OFFiCE THAT DAY I REMEMBER SUGGESTiNG THE POSSiBiLiTY THAT I SUFFERED FROM SOME SORT OF NEUROLOGiCAL ABNORMALiTY WHiCH RENDERED ME UNABLE TO DiSTiNGUiSH BETWEEN SYMBOLiC iNFRiNGEMENT ON MY CAPACiTY TO SELF-DETERMiNE AND PHYSiCAL ACTS TO THAT SAME END. I ALWAYS ADVOCATED FOR A MEDiCAL EXPLANATiON-- I WAS VERY CURiOUS ABOUT THE DRUGS I KNEW OTHER KiDS WERE PRESCRiBED, WHETHER OR NOT EXPERiENCiNG THEiR EFFECTS FiRST-HAND MiGHT CHANGE MY UNDERSTANDiNG OF THE ARCHiTECTURE OF THE HUMAN MiND-- BUT I AM CONViNCED THAT NO ONE FOLLOWED UP ON THiS FOR THE SOLE REASON THAT I WAS THE iDEA'S ORiGiNATOR, AND TO THEM, APPEARiNG TO TAKE MY COUNSEL SERiOUSLY FOR EVEN A SiNGLE MOMENT MiGHT SOMEHOW FURTHER WEAKEN THEiR ALREADY TENUOUS CLAiM TO A NECESSARY AND iMMUTABLE AUTHORiTY OVER ME.

i STiLL HAVE THE COLLECTiON, THOUGH-- DiSGUSTiNG, HORRiBLE SHiT, MOST OF WHiCH I'M SURE THE ORiGiNAL OWNERS HAVE COMPLETELY FORGOTTEN ABOUT BY NOW. NONE OF THAT SHiT STOPPED EXiSTiNG, THOUGH.

I HAVE iT ALL.

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