Everybody’s always telling you you have to "be" something all the time. Like how during these early years it is important to start to "be" something. But it’s gotta be something they want you to be. Anything you want to be is always a “whim” or “unrealistic” for crissakes.
It gets on your nerves. It really does.
You know what I’d like to be? I mean if I had my goddam choice? An animator. An animation artist. That’s all I’d do all day. I’d just animate stuff and all. I know it’s crazy, but that’s the only thing I’d really like to be. I know it’s crazy. So I started doing animation and really got into it. I went to California and studied filmmaking and made Independent Animated Films.
"Numerous awards and showings at festivals, universities, and film societies internationally" HAH! (eat your heart out!)
They gave me the Student Academy Award in 1975 - look it up - they must keep records of this stuff, for crissakes…
Then, in the late 70's everything disappeared. The entire Independent Film scene ended. All the goddam distributors, festivals and venues disappeared. I mean, they suddenly just weren't there any more.
Here's an example of what I'm talking about.
Overnight, the key publication "Filmmaker's Newsletter" goes from articles about experimental film and all like, "The Cosmic Cinema of Jordan Belson" to commercially oriented articles like "How to Film a Wedding" (Tip -- make sure to have a shot of them cutting the cake). Really depressing, but it was pretty funny, in a way.
Maybe a 100 X escalation of the price of silver had something to do with it... (Film is coated with silver. When the film is developed, the exposed silver is washed away -- or maybe it's the unexposed silver -- whatever...)
I kept on making goddam films anyway! But I hated the messy paint, scratches on the cels, goddam reflections on the cels, fingerprints on the cels. The cat walks in the goddam paint and gets it all over everything. I'm not kidding. It's depressing. It really is.
I really needed a goddam computerized digital system for crissake.
Computers were available, but they cost a million dollars and it took a roomful of scientists to operate them. I swear to God.
But then the Apple computer was invented...
Apple came up with this fantastic program for the Mac -- Hypercard. You couldn't make a goddam Movie yet, but it was possible to make interactive animation by yourself. "Interactivity" was the big thing -- they called it Multimedia in those days...
Eventually I made this goddam Japanese Language learning program with Hypercard. I found out later that hundreds of people were simultaneously creating Japanese Language learning programs with Hypercard. Who the hell knew? Not me.
Then Multimedia suddenly disappeared overnight. I swear it did. It was just gone. Like when all your data is erased in a goddam drive crash. It made me feel sad as hell.
That was OK because Virtual Reality came along as the Next Big Thing.
And then Virtual Reality disappeared - gone in a flash like Multimedia and the Independent Film Scene...
But at the same time Virtual Reality went away, the goddam Internet has expanded - and become faster. Now you can play High Definition Movies -- HD right out of the clouds!
So now I'm making 3D Animated Movies -- no interactivity any more - you just kick back and watch...